Simple thoughts

 to my life....For a start, maybe you wanna know what I really, really dislike.....so I decided to put down a list, not necessarily in a strict order, just as things came to my mind.

1- People who change their mind faster than you can say 'what?'

2- People who pretend to know what's better for you (but they do exactly the opposite)

3- People who pretend to feel exactly as they were in your shoes, not even knowing the righ size(of your shoes, I mean)

4- People eager to give you advices (and you even didn't ask)

5- This hastiness that seems to be priority in everyone's life, 'I want it all and I want it now!!'

6- This careless way of living, going on without worrying if someone is left behind.

7- People molesting children

8- People abusing their power over others

9- Church pretending to say the last word over every possible human aspect (political one, too)

10- Marilyn Manson

It's not all, but I'm sure the top tens are all here.

....but I didn't succed!! I acted as this day would never come, as if I didn't care. I tried to avoid thinking about it, the only thing I whished was to delete it on the calendar.

                                             

Yes, it's my birthday today. My 44th birthday to be truly honest. Sometimes I think 'hey, I'm still young' sometimes these years are heavy like stones on my shoulders. And I think 'What if....?' If I didn't make the choices I made, if I didn't say the things I've said, or be silent when instead I spoke up. What would be like my life today? Better or worse? Easier or more complicated? If I look back I'm satisfied of what I've accomplished, but still there are so many regrets there, things that I know I won't never do.

Best thing today? The big kiss and the 'I love you, mom' from my daughter as soon as she woke up.

 

We were debating on our forum the other day, about the meaning of the word "family" today. So many different opinions were expressed, maybe because there are so many kind of families out there.  

Once there was only the traditional family, mom, dad, children, and more than often, grand-parents, living all together. Mom stayed at home raising kids with no regrets at all. Than, moms started working, so less children were born, no grand-parents baby-sitting them, and family changed. Over the years it became quite natural being the children of divorced parents, so families began to grown in members' number again, but this time with step-parents, step-siblings and step-grand-parents.

Even the number of not married couples with or without children grew. Couples with adopted children or children in foster care. Gay couples with or without children. Single parents. I was raised as a Roman Catholic, (I don't practice anymore, little confused at the time) and I know that this subject is strictly modulate by the Church. In my country people living together as a family don't have the same rights as married couples (and this implies money, insurance, health and inheritance matters) in fact discriminating them. And please don't talk about gays and in vitro fertilization!

My own opinion? Ok, first a few, simple questions. Family means people loving each other? People caring for each other? People supporting each other? People helping each other (financially and not)? People caring for each other grown? People whishing for each other happiness? If your answer to all the questions is "Yes", you have my definition of what it is a family, no matter which is its anatomy.

Do you like fruits and you have a sweet tooth? Had a bad day? This will surely cheer you up.

300 gr cheese cream
150 gr sugar
3 egg yolks (save the whites)
2 spoons of brandy or cognac (I prefer Grand Marnier)

Mix the egg yolks with the sugar, make it soft. Then add the cheese cream, slowly. Mix it very well, no lumps allowed. Stir the whites till they are really, really soft. Add to the cream very slowly and for last, add the brandy. Put in the fridge for at least two hours before serving. Best with sliced pineapple, but you can put it on top of your fav fruit.

One of my online friends has just reopened her site about all that's literature and reading, so take a look at http://www.bookworms.de and if you like what you see, join us!!!

We can share our favourite readings, exchange opinions, and give advices on what to read next!

I know, officially it will start the 21st. But days are getting shorter and shorter, the temperature is falling down, the sun is not that warm. I can't say I'm not happy about this. I like this season, when the memories of summer are not faded away, and the waiting for Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas is in the air. I like this sort of limbo, suspended between the summer sun and the winter snow. With first windy and cold days, I like the warm of my home, under a wool cover, a book, some soft music and a cup of hot coffee. It's the time for doing all the things that you kept postponing in the hot days of summer, when the sun invited you to go out. You know, going through all those old letters, bills, and notes that are piling on your desk. Make room in your closet, putting away all those clothes you know you'll never wear again. Writing down in your own book all those receips you have scattered around. Finally put in order all those old photos lost in some boxes. And maybe, promise to yourself to really start that diet....

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   First day, fourth high school year, Art Institute. It started all again for Martina, today. So, for the next nine months (yeas, exactly like a very difficult pregnancy...) early wake-ups in the morning (and all that "Please, another sec..", damm!) homeworks to be done, usually at the very last minute, panic for verifications at school waiting for the results, books and stuff to buy (and all very expensive). Well, at least, only two years are left, and then what? Work (if she's so lucky to find one), university or stages? We'll see. For now, good luck honey!

This sadness won't leave me, and I'm not at ease with this kind of feeling. I'm not one who usually let things of life bringing me down, I don't like feel this way. But only thing I'd like today would be stay in a lonely corner all by myself, seeing no one and hear no one. Instead I'm at work with my usual smile attached to my face, as nothing was wrong. I can only pray today will end soon, and hope for a better tomorrow, even if I know that something would be changed forever. And I know I have my share of guilt, the worst part is I don't know how to fix things for the future.

 

Well, today is one of those days I just want to stay in bed with my Linus cover and shut out the entire world. I feel stuck myself in the middle of a sort of war, I know I can't take both sides but I would, I don't know what to do. I'm just so tired of all. I whish I could fly away on my own, just for a while, to recharge my batteries, and stay in a bowl where nothing can touch me. I know that if you love somebody there's a chance you can be hurt, so my dilemma is, what's worse, be alone or be hurt? And when you're hurt badly, how can you heal yourself and keep going on?

I have one on-line italian friend living in the States. Today she e-mailed telling me she's going through a divorce. I'm very sad about this, coz their story really was a fairy-tale and I believe in happy endings. Plus they have a little girl, who's gonna suffer from the situation. Positive thing is, she eventually will come back to Italy, so we can be closer.

Why nothing lasts nowaday? It's really too difficult to carry on a relationship? My friend is not the first and surely will not be the last, to divorce. Maybe we want all and we want it soon and our way? We are not able anymore to make sacrifices or to just really listen to others? It really scares me think about this.