Simple thoughts

Carefully checking the Netherland map to fix the details of our trip, I saw that on our way back, we'll pass very near Josan's hometown. She's an on-line friend with whom I'm in touch from several years now. I got to know her through an old fan site, now she's the master of this one. I really hope everything will fit in so to get to know each other personally!

And this tought brought me very far.........made me thinking about all the people I "met" online who has become my regulars.........how I came to know so different ways of living, in so many countries, lots of different realities.
So many names I check on often (someone on a daily basis).............Milica in Serbia, Ionuca in Romania,  Josan in Holland, Julia and Shadia in Germany, Shelley in Italy, Kelli in Arizona, Andy in Florida. And so many others....... Ree, Jenny, Finny, Karl, Bobbie, Alexis..............what a wonderful world there's out there!



Anyway, this weekend I will spend time with my flesh-and-blood friends, starting from tonight. So, I won't have the chance to be online till next week, the last working one! And I have to think about arranging baggages and lists of what to bring with us. Have a great time, all of you..........

Yesterday morning mom asked me to drive her and dad's brother to visit an old aunt (dad's sister) who's staying at the same nursing home dad spent some months in, last year.
Aunt Dina conditions are worsened a little (she has the same desease dad had) and so did all the others patients I saw as well. It was very painful to be back there, see again all those people who for a while shared our lives, and their families as well. Lots of them are worsened so very much, not talking or walking anymore. Some are not able anymore to feed themselves without help.
So I guess Someone above thought it for the better, I guess dad is fine now, I know I couldn't see him like this. Now I can imagine him in a better place, looking after us all.

   I usually feel this way at springtime. But the season is yet to come, so when it will really arrive, how it will effect my mood? I mean, it will be worse than I feel today? Kill me now.

I don't feel like working (and I have so many papers due).
I don't feel like reading (and this speaks out loud for those who know me).
I don't feel like cooking (something that always makes me happy).
I don't feel like watch movies (and this is strange too).

I just want to surf the net, searching for funny videos on YouTube, reading my favourite blogs, and stare outside the window, daydreaming.

Would you call all this a waste of time? With all the things I have to do, surely yes. But I can't do anything about it, it's just the way I'm feeling right now. So, any suggestions?